I’m back. I was thinking, well, no one ever listens to me regularly anyway so it doesn’t really matter that I did not show up to this job for a week. I did have regular appropriate flashes of guilt whenever I thought about my blog. Then, I thought I should apologize for having been away for so long. Then, I checked my comments and someone said they looked forward to reading me every day. That was a surprise, that felt good. So, I am sorry for not being consistent and I will do better.
What has been happening is, I am very busy in an extremely progressive real world way to which I’m not accustomed. I used to live a totally reactive life, simply reacting to the people and situations encroaching upon me and trying to make a living. I developed more work than I could handle and had to acquired some help, in the form of a very nice man, who does an excellent job for me. I am entirely unaccustomed to having any kind of help or support. I’m surprised at how encouraging and confidence building it is to know I’m not struggling all alone. Amazingly, step-by-step I became qualified to buy a big house, so I have been very busy looking for that house and my timing seems to be incredibly good. Interest rates are way down, prices are very depressed and the bank likes ME!
The first offer I made, last week, was turned down. Tomorrow I will know about offer number two. This is exciting and fun. My Queen of anhedonia crown could be in danger, unless my meds don’t arrive in the mail soon. I’m also currently teaching two classes for NAMI and just had a yearly State inspection for my business. At other times, under similar stressors I have been a total wreck! Something is definitely working!
More about my online medication experience. The first order I put in it didn’t go through because the bank thought it might be a fraudulent sale, and did not send money. It took two days to get the information that the sale had not been completed, so I tried again. Now, “it’s in the mail.” As soon as this batch arrives I will be ordering the next backup batch to make sure I don’t get in this position again.
Aside from having help both in the form of an employee and an excellent peer support group, here is a list of the combinations that may be working for me. Metformin of 500 mg a day (brain protective), Lithium Carbonate 750 mg a day (prevents the manic/hypomanic phase of bipolar disorder), Selegiline 30 mg a day (antidepressant, brain protective), BuSpar 20 mg a day (anti-anxiety), Chlorphenamine maleate 12 mg a day. (“ In addition to being an H-1 histamine receptor antagonist, chlorpheniramine has been shown to work as a serotonin-norepinephrine reuptake inhibitor or SNRI. [1] A similar antihistamine, brompheniramine, led to the discovery of the SSRI zimelidine. Limited clinical evidence shows that it is comparable to several antidepressant medications in its ability to inhibit the reuptake of serotonin and also norepinephrine (noradrenaline).[2] However, extensive clinical trials of its psychiatric properties in humans have not been conducted. It inhibits serotonin reuptake less than norepinephrine reuptake, [3] however the literature is not consistent in this respect (compare Hellbom (2005) with Domino (1999)). From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia”) It’s WAY cheaper than PRISTIQUE!! I also take Vitamin D 5000 iu (brain food), Melatonin 9 mg (for sleep), Valerian Root 1350 mg (for sleep), fish oil EPA/Omega 3, 4100 mg a day (10 caps, brain food). Some of you may have read, “Help My H. P. A. Axis has Crashed”, which I wrote a couple weeks ago. I believe it and I’m taking the rehabilitation of the very seriously. I just got my Adrenal 80 mg (whole desiccated glandular concentrate) , which I will be taking two of a day and my Porcine Thyroid 130 mg , which I will also be taking two of per day. Then there is the Emotional Freedom and Healing practitioner I saw last month, my success at exercising, intermittently (swimming laps) and my aromatherapy, a mixture of rosemary and lavender oils, which may well be contributing to my current, vastly improved level of comfort. Knock on wood. Cross my fingers…
DISCLAIMER : This is what I do. I do not recommend that anyone else do it or encourage anyone else to do what I do. I am an experiment. You are welcome to watch.
Got’ta go. I told the guys we would go get ice cream at seven.