Pray to be Lonely
Lonely is the catalyst for social interaction and avoidance of lonely is the glue that holds people together. I see the lonely people, they are everywhere. Lonely, a word to describe the pain of wanting to be close to other people, of yearning for connection, it is a very positive emotion. That is one double edge, good thing, about having anhedonia. I don’t get lonely, that is I can only recall feeling lonely once in my life, over 30 years ago for a short period of time. That is the only way I know the pain of lonely, that some people live with on a daily basis. I have nearly no craving for social interaction. I don’t understand “chat”. I do not enjoy people -in general. There are only a few people I care to see at all. They are the people who, for some reason I don’t understand, reach out to me, so I imitate them and reach back. For the first time I have a couple precious relationships. For the first time in over 50 years, I know if I went away, as I have dozens of times, I would miss a couple people. Perhaps that’s a step in learning to be lonely.
Donations are very welcome!
50% of donations go to NAMI ( The National Alliance on Mental Illness). 50% of donations go toward my Brain Transplant…It shouldn’t be too hard to find one; there are a lot of people running around who obviously are NOT using theirs…thank you!
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